The lady choking me slowly unconscious so she can rob my home is like, "It's really awkward when you say 'harder daddy.' Could you stop it?"

Got her digits though.

Printed around my neck.

This could be you, Lady Dimitrescu.

I've noticed that there's a certain kind of ableism from family and acquaintances that's been wearing on me for a decade now and its when people believe that

Someone else can be ill/disabled but you can't be

And the misstep exists when people think but I know you, how could you possibly be disabled and that is something so deeply frustrating to be on the receiving end of and I'll unpack the two reasons why

1) other people mindset: I think this can be best explained by this calvin and hobbes comic

People often don't realise that anything that can happen to other people can also happen to you or someone you know and that includes gaining a disability. People are afraid and sobered by confronting their mortality, so, they don't... But this causes disability to be made out to be this distant thing, made othered, and this extends the divide between the abled and the disabled so much so that when someone you know tells you that they're disabled, some people refuse to believe it point blank. They don't want to connect the condition to the person or simply they can't, especially when the disablity is invisible.

Which brings me to my second point

2) not knowing what disabilites look like

I'm not saying that its anyone's fault but being expected to mask your pain in society leads to people not understanding what an ordinary person with chronic illness looks like. Which is that they look like everybody else.

a) masking/hiding disabilities:

Sometimes I'll be sitting somewhere completely still not speaking a word, breath shallow, and you'd think I'm relaxed but I'm actually in pain. But you won't know that from just looking at me.

When people have trouble picturing this overlap their push back is 'but I know you, you can't be like these other disabled people'. But the thing is they dont know me. People don't know I mask my adhd. Or that I mask my pain.

(And maybe they do know you but they still view you from 5 years ago when you could walk everywhere to run errands and focus enough to read 5 books in a week and still have energy leftover but with age and time you can't do the same shit anymore and its not a simple matter of trying hard enough.)

b) irregularity of disabilities

Its hard to explain to other people but the intensity of your disability is not constant! It fluctuates and so does your ability to manage it. You can have a good day or a bad day, both completely out of nowhere but other people can't tell, they won't instintually just know you and your limits better than you!

When people say 'but I know you' what they're actually saying is ' I've seen your good days where you manage things just fine so you're clearly exaggerating here and don't need the accommodations you're seeking'

And this is very invalidating and a bit gaslighty and people need to stop this bullshit because it leads to people becoming progressively more sick/ frustrated at themselves but unable to find sympathy and take the necessary steps to access the care they need.

Tldr: stop feeling entitled enough to make judgements about the health of other people's minds and bodies. Anyone can be disabled and everyone deserves to be accomodated

(anyway this was inspired by my mother telling me that she belives me when i say I have adhd but still expects me to get my act together without meds or therapy. your gal is through it rn)

someone: calls me by a nickname

me: 💝💛💖💙💖💞💞💖💞💖💝💛💞❤️💙💛💙💜💘💚💟💟💓💞💚💕💖💜💝💛💞💓💘💞💖💜💟💛💘💞

cishet guys love goth chicks until they start doing goth chick things, not me, I’m looking for my Morticia and stepping up my Gomez game until I am worthy, I would love to go to the Museum of Death with you, I would love to show you my taxidermy and oddity collection and I would love to see yours, I would love to go to your favorite cemeteries babe

I don’t mind sitting on the edge of the bathtub keeping you company while you tease your hair for 30 minutes. I love it when I hand you the aux cord and you play Bauhaus. You have such great taste in everything,

It’s okay that you got white foundation on my Disintegration shirt when you hugged me. I don’t mind at all.

Then this post isn’t for you.

Anyway. Ladies, look at my antique mummified piranha:

Sick.

Item: fancy dinner of roast beef, mashed potatoes, and peas. You can tell it’s fancy by the martini glass

So I downloaded the VAERS data for 2021 and for anyone concerned that the data is being hidden this is one of the reports that's just left in there:

"Meanwhile we have become your lab rats. I have already lost a relative to your experimental gene therapy. A blood clot in the heart. All my other unvaccinated relatives who got Covid are alive and well today. This is like playing roulette with a needle. Because they are using this experimental gene therapy on the public now to vacinnate for Covid. The problem is it has harming people with heart conditions and killing them. My relative died recently from a blood clot in the heart after being vaccinated. They do not know the harmful side effects or are not releasing it. They already said they will not release the data they have on this for 75 years. Why? What are they afraid of?"

It's a social media comment sent to a rep for one of the drug companies making the vaccines; the rep reported it to VAERS along with a bunch of similar comments. It doesn't include the age of the deceased person, the date they died, the date they received either dose of the vaccine, and is included in the reporting data anyway.

There are a ton of reports that just say "died within 60 days of getting the vaccine." There are some reports noted in VAERS even though the reporter listed the cause of death as suicide.

I feel like it's really difficult to over-emphasize how transparent VAERS is and how much you can absolutely look into it yourself if you have concerns about vaccines. It really is just literally every reported adverse reaction to a vaccine as determined by the person doing the reporting, and it includes everything from sudden death by stroke to swollen lymph nodes.

Anyway. Vaccines are good.

Like, pretty much every anti-vaxxer I've talked to about VAERS says "well you don't know that they're putting in the REAL information" and you know what, I don't. I can't guarantee that everything is going in there or is being reported accurately.

But if you give even a passing glance at the kinds of things that DO get put into it I think it becomes much harder to believe that the REALLY bad information is being kept out.

I am a woman with simple needs for a protagonist who is terrible at everything and kind of shitty in general, like a toy from a 1980s television advertisement. But somehow they achieve catharsis or success through sheer perseverance and dumb luck. I need to project myself onto this garbage hero so hard that I'm starting to write stories with them just to have more of them to project onto.

My writing is "come see someone who sucks have a terrible time for awhile."

What got you back into art and writing Cipher?

*pounding the table* COMPLETE FUCK-UPS REPRESENT!

This is so wholesome <3

Stripes is a good cat <3

Just run a series of short campaigns that are blatant copy/pastes of B movie plots, but with the word "magic" inserted in front of the nouns.

The first adventure is Magic Snakes on a Magic Plane.

(for sci-fi games, replace "magic" with "space")

(via)

you're in her DMs, and I'm being recreated in her lil Sim world so she can woohoo me. We're not the same.