What does that even mean? Whatever it does, it doesn’t make me feel any better. Because I don’t feel like this is home. And I think that just proves to me why. Part of my heart is here, obviously, because Morgan is here. But past that…
There are a few friends here. People I absolutely love and would miss if I moved. But, oddly, they’re mostly people I’ve met on the internet. And I feel like, for every one person here, there are more people in other places that I want to see. Friends I haven’t seen in years, sisters who I miss getting to see on a regular basis, people from the internet who I haven’t ever actually met yet. If home is where the heart is, my home is in pieces across the damn continent- Arizona, Oregon, New York, Utah. No wonder I don’t feel at home here.
It is 3 pm on the last day of September. It is 109 degrees outside, according to the sign on the Walgreens across the street from me. Goddamn but I just want out of this state right now.
“It’s astonishing how much trouble one can get oneself into, if one works at it. And astonishing how much trouble one can get oneself out of, if one simply assumes that everything will, somehow or other, work out for the best.”—Destruction, in Sandman #72, part three of “The Wake”
Approximately 300 years ago, Destruction abandoned his realm. His sigil has been taken down, and he can no longer be reached. He is not dead, for if that was so, another aspect of Destruction would have taken his place. He simply choose not to be responsible for destruction and all other facets of his domain anymore. There is still destruction and change, it is just no longer controlled.
Destruction can no longer be reached, but should you ever you meet a tall, red-haired man, carrying a knapsack, you might want to offer him some bread and cheese. He tells good stories.
I love Death and I love Delirium. But I think Destruction has to be my favorite of the Endless.
17 - Last time I slow danced? Oh, man, good question. Uh, it’s probably been a while. It might have been in a grocery store. 22 - Do I cook? Not much. I’m not bad at it, but I bake more. 36 - First thing I notice in the opposite sex? Hair. Or lips. 44 - Next person I’m going to kiss? If it isn’t my wife, then I think something unforeseen must happen in the next five or ten minutes.
1. Picture of yourself? 2. Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? 3. Have you ever been dumped? 4. What do you most like about making out? 5. Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? 6. When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? 7. What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? 8. Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? 9. Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? 11. Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? 12. What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? 13. Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? 14. Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? 15. Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? 16. Do you miss your last sweetie? 17. Last time you slow danced with someone? 18. Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? 19. How can I win your heart? 20. What is your astrological sign? 21. What were you doing last night at 12 AM? 22. Do you cook? 23. Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? 24. If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? 25. Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? 26. What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? 27. Name four things that you wish you had: 28. Are you a player? 29. Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? 30. Are you a tease? 31. Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? 32. Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? 33. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? 34. Hugs or Kisses? 35. Are you too shy to ask someone out? 36. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? 37. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? 38. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? 39. Do you flirt a lot? 40. Your last kiss? 41. Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2011? 42. Have you kissed anyone in the past month? 43. If you could kiss anyone who would it be? 44. Do you know who you’ll kiss next? 45. Does someone like you currently? 46. Do you currently have feelings for anyone? 47. Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? 48. Ever made out with just a friend? 49. Are you happier single or in a relationship? 50. Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.